To keep matters short, after an extended amount of time hating the day to day grind of programming I began playing with electronics and hardware again, and I couldn't have been happier.

I have always had a passion for hardware, many will disagree with what I say next but this is a personal thought: software isn't real. It isn't tangible, most code doesn't do anything that has any direct effect other than through people interacting (if that) with the real world. It is a format of making that does not age well as most code fails after a few years, it's all in your mind, and it never interfaces or have a texture outside of a screen or a keyboard. It doesn't have the feeling of a true project.

My suggestion is to start tinkering with hardware. The feeling of accomplishing real world things - even if it's just an LED blinking! Is extremely exciting for someone tired of only imagining physical processes and instead actually witnessing your code doing things in the real, physical, actual world.

I did this, and it opened a whole new world for me. I build robots from scratch, and I've turned it into my full time job. Even if most never go that far (hardware is hard! I don't suggest it in most cases! ) it will still be the best decision you could make for your mental health.

Write some code, see it play out in the real world. Have fun with servos, motors, lights, vibration motors (my favorite, seeing them jump around) , and rekindle that child within you. You'll love all forms of coding afterwards again, and you'll build some cool stuff you can show your friends and family and be proud.

You could be a great hardware hacker in disguise, we need more of them in the world!

Switch jobs, but find it first. Do not go out placing your resume, research various companies and choose one that does what you want. But do not quit until you find the new job.

Contact old friends from Uni, tell them you are looking for a great working environment. Make sure you have clearly defined what you consider essential. Also consider what are nice to haves. Your absolute must list cannot be longer than 3 items.

Good luck :-)

Same for me but with graphic design.

Then I discovered coding and it's a perfect escape to fire up a side project and tinker in the evenings rather than have to think about the Adobe software suite.

Whilst coding and graphic design / visual communication are completely different things – both skills supplement each other. I imagine I have a bit of an edge when it comes to UI and UX design, and knowing the fundamentals of various languages also adds a lot of value at work when it comes to collaborating with technical staff.

I'd recommend branching out a bit at home and finding something that tests you (mentally or physically) in a completely different way to your day-to-day responsibilities. If you're lucky you might find a hobby that is different enough to your day job to be engaging and fun but also have just enough overlap to benefit you professionally.

Pretty much everything makes more fun as a hobby than when you have to pay the bills with it. Do you think working with wood is fun? Sure, if you have to build the same thing 100 times to put food on the table, it is not so much fun anymore.

There was an article I read a few years ago, pretty much in the same boat as you. To put it in words, a professor quit academia to become a mechanic because working with his hands, the results of his labour are self evident, and he doesnt need to constantly explain himself. For bricklayers, electricians and mechanics and other artisans all they have to do to prove their worth is point: look the wall stands, the lights come on, the engine starts.

"Really got into it, hours passed by. I almost had believed I had ADHD, but all that was gone. I couldn't be more focused."

Some ADHD people (like myself) hyperfocus.

I don't get to choose when it happens, I can't use it to do things I find boring, but when I'm really into something it can kick in and hours of incredible productivity fly by.

To reiterate what others here are getting at, there is a saying that goes something like "Pick your second favourite hobby as your profession", suggesting that doing it professionaly often ruins it. My old flatmate was a very sort-after chef in the city we lived, getting job offers all over the place and he'd come home every night and make himself instant ramen because he didn't want to spend anymore time in a kitchen.

If you're failry young and unencumbered you have a few options ranging from least drastic like: pick up a new hobby, change teams, change jobs within the company or change jobs completely to a new company and variations on those to most drastic: change professions entirely, go to university, pick up a trade doing something that interests you.

I think this is true for almost every profession: If you do it as a hobby, it's fun, if you have to build stuff for someone else with deadlines and screaming project managers, it's less and less fun.

The problem is that things that are fun and things that bring in money to survive are not always overlapping. But you could start to think about a fun side project you work on that has the potential to become a product people are paying for while working in your day-to-day job to get money in.

I did it for years, then I quit and now I'm a happy pauper.

ADHD doesn't mean you can't ever focus. It means you have much less control over what you focus on. ADHD people can even have a tendency to hyperfocus on things that interest them or give them a constant dopamine drip. Hyperfocus can lead them to forget to eat or stay up very late without even noticing, simply because they're focused so hard on the thing they're preoccupied by.

welcome to the real world.

this is the case for most people, once we do things for pay, we rarely enjoy doing it for hobby. nevertheless, don't let it stop you.

I feel similar to you. I miss having agency over what I'm building. It can be extremely demoralizing and frustrating.

For example, I have to fix some "bugs" in my code. Apparently the application that sends us json messages doesn't properly escape double quotes in one of the fields, so I have to fix it. It's another internal application, so I don't see why we can't have them rollback this addition of double quotes that isn't compliant with json standards.

On top of this, that other system is using that field for both business and system data. So we have to string match that field and perform logic if it's true. But the business uses that field to display on the UI so they request updates to it. Why would you architect it this way!

I was building a report a few weeks ago and found out that the report is for operational work, but that we only have the necessary data available in an archive repo which won't contain up to date info. My team doesn't own the data or systems so we aren't allowed to redesign it. Yet they complain that I can't give them what they want. I'm a dev, not a magician...

What are these higher paid architects doing?

Switch jobs. There are interesting programming positions, you just have to be really picky

If you make your hobby your work, it will stop being fun. Same thing happened to me.